Through Dangers Untold And Hardships Unnumbered: Archive

Feb 24th

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I think I may delete my blog soon

I hardly ever find myself here anymore. Maybe I’ll just leave it here for old times sake, but I believe my life has improved significantly. I’ve run out of things to bitch about (minus a few things that will never change). Its been a good half of a year and I can safely say that its because of the changes I made. Now, I’ve been in the gym for 5 months and its showing, I...

Jan 9th

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GAMES

It finally happened… Finally a girl played games with me and got burned. I’m kind’ve glad. I’m so used to being on the other end. Hint: If you like somebody, tell them. Don’t play around and screw with their head and say how you need space etc. when you’re straight up lying. I decide to stop pursuing her and pretty quickly someone else, who I’m much...

Dec 14th

Dec 2nd

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Dec 2nd

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Dec 2nd

288 notes

Dec 2nd

Maybe I'm still doing this wrong...

I’ve been doing well to change my habits, myself, and my surroundings, but it’s not done. I feel like everyday there’s something else I learn. I think the next step is to ease up on life and not be so serious all the time. I have been focused so hard on people and what they’re capable of and, because of the unique circumstances of my life… I have often been let...

Dec 1st

Another average day is on the horizon

Maybe I’ll find a way to make it special… or maybe it will just be Tuesday. Goodnight

Nov 30th

I Still Have A Lot Of Growing To Do...

Nov 29th

First Day Of Serious Nutrition Is Tomorrow

Nov 29th

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Nov 29th

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Nov 29th

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Nov 29th

4,766 notes

I Shot Guns This Weekend!!

and this has nothing to do with that. I need to get back into the gym again. Thanksgiving took a couple of days away from me and I’ve noticed that every time that I miss a day, then don’t workout during the weekend, I feel like shit by the end of it. My mental state goes downward by the minute, even though I should feel fine because I’ll be there tomorrow. I need to keep...

Nov 29th

Nov 24th

13,108 notes

Nov 24th

A New Look For A New Life

I will never be satisfied and I’m glad it’s that way. I just want things to keep changing as much as possible. I don’t even want to remember my old life and the lack of care I saved for myself. I am now 187 lbs… down from 209 and THANK GOD. I’ll be in the 170’s soon for the first time since elementary school. Rather then repeating my past (like most of my...

Nov 24th

I'm going to make a list

Places I want to go and things I want to do in the next 4 years… Then, I need to make it all happen (and I do make things happen when I want them). Examples: Travel to… Europe, California, New York (for starters) Snowboarding, Mountain Biking, and possibly Brazilian Jiu Jitsu training of some kind (huge fan) Randoms… Have no one know where I am for about a week. Leave the state...

Nov 23rd

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Nov 23rd

10,833 notes

WINNIE THE POOH

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Nov 22nd

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Nov 22nd

Nov 21st

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Nov 21st

If you ever want to know how predictable a human...

Leave them for 6 months, then visit. I did that today when I got a phone call from a former friend, Stephen. I feel its best to maintain balance in life, so cutting someone out completely maybe isn’t the best thing. Today was one of my better days, so I went over to his mom’s house upon request to see his family. They were all shocked by my weight and shape (YUSSS) and at the...

Nov 21st

Nov 19th

14,370 notes

Nov 19th

I'm not really interested in anything

Nothing grabs me and says “give me everything you’ve got,” so I just go about my daily routine and try to improve myself mentally and physically until something does. I used to be afraid to lose anything… a person, an possession, a feeling. Now I almost find loss exciting (am I broken?). Everything is up for grabs in my life because I have my finger on the pulse of how...

Nov 19th

This life just isn't good enough

I have had the experience to feel pain and heartache time and time again and I count myself lucky for such opportunities. I apparently have made some people proud, but I have yet to make myself proud. I will continue to change everything in my world until I am proud of myself and my accomplishments.

Nov 19th

What to do with my mother?

Everyday I wonder… Who is going to take care of my mom? Who’s going to make sure she’s not alone (since my dad’s gone)? I’m 22 years old and half of every week is spent with my mom because no one else cares if she’s alone. We go to dinner and watch movies etc. The things that I want in life and the things that make me happy tend to disagree with staying home...

Nov 17th

I'd just like to take a second...

To let everyone know that I literally feel like death, while writing a paper about leadership. I would like this paper to magically finish typing itself, then I would like to fall asleep forever. HINT: NEXT PART IS NASTY I’ve lost complete control of my body whether it be vomiting or others… I have now run 103 fever for 3 hours after spending the night awake with a pillow on the...

Nov 13th

615 notes

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I WILL FUCKING RUIN YOUR LIFE

SHE’S HERE FUCKING LOADING GROCERIES IN THE CABINET!! WTF!! AREN’T YOU MOVING OUT?!?! IF MY COWARD OF A BROTHER HAS LET YOU BACK IN AND MY MOTHER DOESN’T HAVE THE BACKBONE TO SEND YOU PACKING… I WILL!! I WILL RUIN EVERYTHING FOR YOU IF YOU DON’T STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!! TAKE YOUR FUCKING DOG AND HIT THE FUCKING BRICKS!

Nov 8th

Wasted time

I was having a blast. I did everything for me. I wasn’t destructive… But here I am outside a place where I should be having fun (and was originally)… Absolutely miserable. I’d kill this feeling if I could. Push it out of my brain so I didn’t have to suffer. Instead, it remains even when I think it’s done for. I’m gonna go back in and force myself to...

Oct 17th